The Worth Of Knowing

“I just need to trust more.”

It’s a strange statement most believers have found themselves saying. As if there is anything “just” about trusting anyone even God.

Trusting is like dancing – moving hoping the other will match your pace. Making yourself vulnerable expecting the other to catch you. Testing more advanced moves with apprehension and excitement that you’ll be met on the other side.

Few things are more moving to me then to see and believe that I am known and loved. It’s the safe place where trust is formed.

We can only be loved as deeply as we’re known and often we only allow ourselves to be known if we have reason to believe we will continue to be loved. When we find those relationships slowly and steadily (or sometimes all at once if circumstances push us hard enough) reasons to believe we are safe are piled higher. Our heart’s capacity to hope that we will still be loved even if we are known grows.

And so we let ourselves believe we are loved. Even loved unconditionally by God. Because know one knows us better or loves us more deeply.

“For your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name; and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth he is called.” Isaiah 54:5 ESV

Sometimes we push away because we question our safety. We’re used to being rejected or ignored or misunderstood and so we pull back for seemingly no reason at all. And then we see we’re not abandoned, but that our Father waits for us and pursues us. And we hope again.

“And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.” Luke 15:20 KJV