The Worth Of Knowing

I know
to be adopted 
by a sovereign God
at the cost 
of His own Son
leaves no room 
for reasonable doubt
that I am 
chosen,
protected,
and beloved.

I know
to be brought into 
God's family 
means the lies I heard
for so long -
the ones I recited
to make sense 
of chaos -
no longer apply.
I have agency
to think differently,
to feel differently,
to choose differently. 

And yet
to be transplanted 
to a new home
with a new name
is disorienting. 
I wonder how my 
identity 
could have changed
though my 
character 
is still unlike
my Father's. 
So I fear that
I am only His project,
He will tire of me,
I will never belong. 

But God
chose relationship
over perfection
when He made humanity. 
He chose it again 
when He gave up 
His relationship
with His 
already 
perfect 
Son.
I am now
His child 
forever. 
I'm not His project. 
I am simply His. 
He is in no hurry
with me. 
He is not reserved
with me. 
He is simply, powerfully 
with me.