embodiment
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My Place: when making Christmas “magical” feels too difficult
December seems to alway remind me of my human limits. Sickness or job loss or depression or grief or boring old exhaustion … it finds our family like it does many. Despite these things, I’m supposed to make the Christmas season “magical” for my family. Each year it hits me in a slightly different way: Continue reading
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A Drop
You are a drop. Refreshing, cool, and safe. God’s an ocean. His waves crash against my body. The edge of His glory forcing me to dive in, submitting to His might, or otherwise be hurled to the shore to grovel among broken shells. You are a drop. You wet my mouth and leave me thirsty. Continue reading
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somehow, this is good
Ten years ago my counselor looked at me gently and said, “Jen, anxiety is probably something you will wrestle with on and off for the rest of your life.” Ten years ago I sat in my car on my way to work and realized that for me at that time swallowing anxiety medication was an Continue reading
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Touched
“I Can See You” by T Swift … quite the inappropriate song, but the line “But what would you do if I went to touch you now?” got me thinking. It made me think of how inappropriate it was for Jesus to touch the leper (and miraculously heal him rather than becoming infected by the Continue reading
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Withness: Sitting in someone else’s discomfort
The thing with sharing about myself is thatno one really gets to see meuntil I know how they will hold me with me.Their questions and commentsabout my story or struggleare well-meaning. I just know sometimescomments are used subconsciouslyto create distancebetween my story and themselves. Discomfort is hard. Sometimes people offer bandaidsto help themselves feel better. Continue reading
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When I don’t feel safe with God
An open window into my thoughts last night because (if we’re honest) I’m sure many Christians feel similarly: I realized I was using sin to cope with feeling unaccepted. And it dawned on me – I truly sensed it – that I didn’t “need” that anymore to be/feel accepted. I was safe enough to let Continue reading
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A Human Body
“For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body.”Colossians 2:9 NLT I think I’m beginning to accept a bit of the significance of Jesus being in a human body. But one aspect of the implications of this has shook me a little: God cares about our bodies. “[Our bodies] were made Continue reading
The Worth Of Knowing 