The Worth Of Knowing

I will look into Your eyes
and I will dare to tell You
the truth:
I'm scared
to just 
be
here 
with You.

Because then, 
I think, 
You might be unimpressed. 
You might grow impatient.
You might lose interest.  
You might leave.

I've wanted to be more-
to please
to self-improve
to be needed. 
But I'm confused.
Disappointed.
I thought this was
how to be with You. 
When it's just distraction
or evidence of dysfunction
or idolization of my succes.
And to be with You 
is just to
be
with
You. 

So I will sit
I will be human
I will be unfinished
I will be here
with You. 
I will dare myself to stay
under Your gaze
a little longer.

Whatever it says,
I will sit under Your gaze,
until it works itself 
into me.